As most of you know I have been focusing more on my family than blogging which is a good thing because I feel that family should come before work. But lately I have been getting super depressed and feel lost. I am getting ready to turn 30 and have 4 children ages 9, 6, 3 and 5 months... So I am always on the go and feel like I never can catch a break. Now that school is getting ready to let out it seems like my stress level is rising and rising...
I have been doing very well with staying in God's word which does help relieve some of the stress and I have a ladies bible study once a week which is my time out without the kids... Angel goes with me to the bible study but she is not a problem and she loves all the attention she gets from the ladies. It's hard for me to handle Bubba at times with his ADHD and being a very sensitive young man. Pumpkin and Sweet Pea love to butt heads and if their not fighting they are getting into trouble together.
I have been praying about some concerns that are on my heart and I feel so lost. I can not tell where the Lord is leading me with my family. I do not want to make the wrong move in our life and it cause more problems then we already dealing with. I also do not want to ruin any relationships with our families. So I am becoming very depressed over trying to keep everyone happy. I am starting to realize that I can not make everyone happy so I need to quite worrying and trying to do so. All that it is causing me is unneeded stress and causing my depression to spiral downward. I need to focus on my family and their happiness. As long as my family is happy, following the Lord and relying on the Lord is all that should matter to me.
Sometimes you have to trust that everything is going to work out. Just a few months ago we were living in a hotel, looking for a place to live and praying we had enough money for a place. Since then, knock on wood, things have fallen into place. We are gearing up for the summer, too, and, lord knows, these kids are going to be a handful. Wish we lived closer so we could keep each other company!
ReplyDeleteI find that during times when I am having problems, and can't seem to see an end to them, it's because I haven't completely let go of the problem for God to fix it. He can't fix it if we are still hanging on to the tail of it. We have to completely turn it over to Him. I think you made the perfect decision to focus on Him and your Family. We can't always please everyone, but as women we often find ourselves trying. I'll be praying for you.
ReplyDeletePraying for you to find peace and joy even during the difficult moments.
ReplyDeleteIt's easy to feel lost when you're a mom. Make sure to take care of yourself, so you can take care of your children. Don't be afraid to ask for help! <3
ReplyDeleteI think it is normal to get depressed at times especially when you are so busy! It is a good thing to take a break and just relax as much as you can. You have a beautiful family and things will fall into place. Don't worry and just be in the moment as much as you can. Praying is the best and you will go through this! Take care and prayers are sent your way!! Rita Spratlen
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